The Eyes Chico!

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I always tend to observe things while walking on the road -trees, cars, shops, temples, houses, food stalls and the list continues...

But I also observed that I observe people too;

And not their body, clothes, accesories, or their voice if talking; but I look into their eyes..

I tend to make an eye contact with any random stranger person on the road; post covid effect I guess!

(except for when I see group of boys just gazing me; their stare will eventually lead to many aggresive writeups)

Anyways, I don't know it depicts which version of mine among creepy, observant, judgemental, confused, confident, diligent or less-focused,

It feels as if I am searching for something without knowing for what, within whom and for who.

Thankfully, people who walk with me haven't figured it out yet because I guess I look into eyes in a skillful way;)

And now I am thinking, what would be the person on the other side thinking about me. 

Thus, when I introspect, I feel as if I look into eyes way too more.

To get past this habit, I am trying to walk with a straight face by only looking at the road but couldn't. 

Maybe one day when I get answers of all my questions, 

Maybe when all my vulnerabilities end;

because I console myself that all carry vulnerabilities in their eyes..

Maybe answers I am searching for are questions rebounding back from their eyes.

I hope my eyes answer them.


Neha.

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